Seems like it has been quite a while since my last post, but I have not been going to the gym, trying any new workouts to share and just started to get my appetite back, so it doesn’t even make sense to blog about how my eating is going. It’s not clean, it’s non-existent. I lost weight from being unable to consume any food for four days straight, and could only manage freezies, and a little chicken soup when burning up with fever. This strain of influenza hit me hard. I haven’t felt this awful in years. To make matters worse, I bruised my rib from coughing. I wouldn’t consider myself to be an envious person, but I find myself getting a little dose of the green-eyed monster when I read about all the “killer workouts” folks are doing on various blogs. I have been absent from the gym for over a week now, and don’t know when I can return with this bruised rib. I just have to keep resting, icing it and taking an anti-inflammatory. Right now I wince in pain when I cough, reach above my head with my right arm or breath too heavily so physical exertion is out of the question. I understand that illness happens, but it is frustrating to not be able to participate in the activities I enjoy. I realize just how much I took pain-free movement for granted. I also worry that I may lose what I worked so hard to accomplish. Will my 2 minute plank become a 20 second plank again? What about my push-ups? Will I have to regress back to girl push-ups? I lose strength quickly if I am not consistent. Will it be back to square one and T-Rex shoulders? I don’t want to become this guy again:Then I feel guilty for complaining. I thank God for overall health and try to remember that there are those who are experiencing much worse ailments than a cough and bruised rib.
On a positive note, rest and recovery has allowed me to reassess my goals and truly reflect. Was I eating clean enough, working hard enough in the gym to obtain my goals? Overall, I think I could be doing better. My diet is healthy and most of my meals are pre-planned, but I know I’ve reached for that extra cookie, piece of cake or glass of wine more often than I should have. I know at the gym, I could have pushed myself harder, added that extra set or increased my weight on certain exercises. I know I could look closer to my potential, but if I’m truly serious, I’ve got to work harder.
So right now, I anxiously await for my return to the gym. I anxiously await for the day I can get back on track. I am really not one to make a resolution. If I feel that there is something about myself that needs to change, I try my best to change it, be it in July, December or January. This is not a resolution because I am making this promise to myself before the clock strikes midnight on the thirty-first. The hard work begins as soon as I am able.
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